so tonight, we did the always amazing pool side chats, which included Wes Swan, Brady Swan, Michael Gilger, and me. Incase you dont know, these talks consist of talking about our veiws on anything, and stuff thats going on in our lives. Its kind of a way to confess to prolems you have. So it started out with what i wanted to do with my life, with wise words from both swans and my brother, then mike and wes both left, so it was just brady and i. So both of us had somethings going on in our lives that we needed some help with. It turned into a 4 hour chat with one of my best friends, and brothers in christ. I dont think you could fully understand everything we were talking about (just because we have been talking bout it for a while, but we hadnt had a time to just sit and talk yet). So my mother comes in at around 2 and tells us it kinda late and i have to take brady swan home. I kept telling them that i will remember these times for the rest of my life, because it was a time when we get to sit down and just talk about stuff that really matters. So im taking brady home, and we are still talking. then i drop him off, and im feeling really emotional becuase i had that feeling, like you know the feeling right after a church trip when you feel SO close to God, well i had that right then. I started listening to Led Zepplin's Going To California, which i will address latter in this blog, but i litterally started praying out loud to God, telling him to help Brady, and show him what he needs to see, and i started to cry alittle bit, it was a very emotional experience. Right then i felt like i was really talking to God, like i saw hid face and everything (ha not to say i dont feel like im really praying to God, but it was just so REAL in that moment). So now this song, no one will really understand what it ment to me in that moment, because they were there with brady and I, but im gonna post the words for you Brady, so when you read this you can see how amazing this is.
Spent my days with a woman unkind,
Smoked my stuff and drank all my wine.
Made up my mind to make a new start,
Going to california with an aching in my heart.
Someone told me theres a girl out there
With love in her eyes and flowers in her hair.
Took my chances on a big jet plane,
Never let them tell you that theyre all the same.
The sea was red and the sky was grey,
Wondered how tomorrow could ever follow today.
The mountains and the canyons started to tremble and shake
As the children of the sun began to awake.
Seems that the wrath of the gods
Got a punch on the nose and it started to flow;
I think I might be sinking.
Throw me a line if I reach it in time
Ill meet you up there where the path
Runs straight and high.
To find a queen without a king;
They say she plays guitar and cries and sings.
La la la la
Ride a white mare in the footsteps of dawn
Tryin to find a woman whos never, never, never been born.
Standing on a hill in my mountain of dreams,
Telling myself its not as hard, hard, hard as it seems.
Trully amazing man, i love you brother,
Mr. Ryan Matthew Gilger
