Tonight

so tonight, we did the always amazing pool side chats, which included Wes Swan, Brady Swan, Michael Gilger, and me. Incase you dont know, these talks consist of talking about our veiws on anything, and stuff thats going on in our lives. Its kind of a way to confess to prolems you have. So it started out with what i wanted to do with my life, with wise words from both swans and my brother, then mike and wes both left, so it was just brady and i. So both of us had somethings going on in our lives that we needed some help with. It turned into a 4 hour chat with one of my best friends, and brothers in christ. I dont think you could fully understand everything we were talking about (just because we have been talking bout it for a while, but we hadnt had a time to just sit and talk yet). So my mother comes in at around 2 and tells us it kinda late and i have to take brady swan home. I kept telling them that i will remember these times for the rest of my life, because it was a time when we get to sit down and just talk about stuff that really matters. So im taking brady home, and we are still talking. then i drop him off, and im feeling really emotional becuase i had that feeling, like you know the feeling right after a church trip when you feel SO close to God, well i had that right then. I started listening to Led Zepplin's Going To California, which i will address latter in this blog, but i litterally started praying out loud to God, telling him to help Brady, and show him what he needs to see, and i started to cry alittle bit, it was a very emotional experience. Right then i felt like i was really talking to God, like i saw hid face and everything (ha not to say i dont feel like im really praying to God, but it was just so REAL in that moment). So now this song, no one will really understand what it ment to me in that moment, because they were there with brady and I, but im gonna post the words for you Brady, so when you read this you can see how amazing this is.

Spent my days with a woman unkind,
Smoked my stuff and drank all my wine.
Made up my mind to make a new start,
Going to california with an aching in my heart.
Someone told me theres a girl out there
With love in her eyes and flowers in her hair.
Took my chances on a big jet plane,
Never let them tell you that theyre all the same.
The sea was red and the sky was grey,
Wondered how tomorrow could ever follow today.
The mountains and the canyons started to tremble and shake
As the children of the sun began to awake.
Seems that the wrath of the gods
Got a punch on the nose and it started to flow;
I think I might be sinking.
Throw me a line if I reach it in time
Ill meet you up there where the path
Runs straight and high.
To find a queen without a king;
They say she plays guitar and cries and sings.
La la la la
Ride a white mare in the footsteps of dawn
Tryin to find a woman whos never, never, never been born.
Standing on a hill in my mountain of dreams,
Telling myself its not as hard, hard, hard as it seems.


Trully amazing man, i love you brother,

Mr. Ryan Matthew Gilger

I want to be almost famous

so right now im nearing the end of Almost Famous. and i havent been this pissed in along time. i mean Russell becomes involved with everything "REAL" and yet he himself isnt real. i could feel my blood boil when i found out Russell was the person who said that 90% of Will's story. I couldnt believe Russell sold out like that, wow, but in another note, this movie makes me want to love music, and become a musician. I dont know if i could ever write like Will (even though i havent seen anything he has written, but im not done with the movie) but as of right now, im really thinking about becoming an English major, because ive noticed how much i love writing. i just wish i had the passion that will has. i dont know if any of this made a difference or anything haha i dont even care if anyone reads this, it was kind of just for me to put all of my thaughts down on paper (or computer) i cant wait to see what is in store for the roads ahead, but i hope it involves a turn table and a room full of good records and lighting a candle while listening to the who (mainly because i love candles but my dad always freaks out when i light candles, thats y i cant wait to live on my own, haha i will always have a candle burning) i know how crazy and random this is but hey, haha im going to be an english major, you have to start somewhere. hope everyone takes it easy.


Mr. Ryan Gilger

PEACE, Finally

right now is about the most peacefully i have been in a long time, i just baught an Unwed Sailor album today (acctually about 30 mins ago) and i have listened to it twice all the way through. thats what i liek about unwed sailor albums you can listen to them all the way through and it is like taking out on an adventure, you mind wonders on to what landscape that song is the theme song so (are you following me?) then album is The Faithful Anchor, and i recomend you get it.


RMG

Who am I

so over the summer my brother told me that he felt he was supposed to be born as a surfer in san deigo, and we both joked aroung about it and laughed, but i had been thinking that was was supposed to be born as a Scotish Highlander. It seems silly i know, but anyone that knows me, knows i know more about scotland than some Scots. The things i dont get these days though are when people freak out about living in another country or something like that, but know nothing about the country, except that it is really pretty. Now dont get me wrong one of the main reason i want to move to scotland is because it is a beautiful place, but i have acctually done some research about the place i have come to love. I love Scotland so much because it is a much simplier place to live. To live in the highlands (the north) and to live off the land and live with out technology, the way God made us, thats paradise for me, and to not worry about money, because why would you need money, you dont need to buy anything, you just eat what ever you grow, and build what ever you need. Now im not talking about going off and living by myself in a stone house, no i would like to live in a community in the highlands, yes kind of like the one William Wallace lived in at the begining of Braveheart. To where there is a strong sence of community, where if you do need something, then you trade goods with you neighboor. I just feel like living here in the woodlands where we are more concerned with whats inside our house, then what is outside, thats not the way it is supposed to be. I'm going to live in scotland with the Ross Clan (family decendent) in the north and have a farm and heerd sheep, and fight with a sword. until then ill just finish highschool, and go to college.